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What a year. We started it by getting your first tattoo, matching ones on our arms. Connected by starlight. My beautiful sun, and I am the moon. It feels like the most perfect symbol of us in this season of life. It has been a year of resilience for you. There were moments when you […]
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I’m sitting in my happy place. The Marriott Marquis of San Diego. There is something about the balcony of these gorgeous suites that looks directly out to the Coronado bridge that gives me so much peace. Although, I think any view does that. I immediately think of the Laguna house I stayed out, our old […]
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Today was move-in day. I feel melancholy. I’m so so so very happy that she’s healthy, happy, excited, and joyous to be back at her school. Her new apartment-style dorm is so spacious. There are a few issues with roommates but she’s not too bothered. Move-in was so smooth. She was already there because of […]
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Thinking back on the last 19 years with Sam brings up a lot of different pictures in my mind. Like the silly times trying to get her in the car seat, and her wiggling out of the straps. Or the happy times at the playground, pushing her on the swing and seeing her smile. I […]
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Sam started talking about tattoos a year ago and I said I would get one with her. We would randomly send each other idea, or talk about it… I don’t remember if it was before or after her first hospitalization. but I said we are DEFINITELY getting a tattoo and she agreed. She started a […]
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I’ve been diving into my blog files, the medical files, and making lists. Sam has a 99% diagnosis of Crohn’s Disease. Oh, the weeks of two different hospital visits, emergency survey, ileostomy bag, and the future concept of weeks, months, and years of potential hardship. I feel like I’ve been wresting with resentment for a […]
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I’m sitting at the pool a the Marriott Marquis in San Diego on a Sunday afternoon. The last three days have been productive, fun, sad, and joyful. I am crying off and on right now though, so there is that. To be fair, tears are not actually coming DOWN but they are welling up and […]
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Filling out college forms for classes. “Were you incarcerated?” Does that mean was I burned? – Sam funnies It was cuter when I wrote them down when she was 4, but I’ll take “ridiculous things my child said when she was 18, Alex”
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“It just dropped from the ceiling!” I walked in the house today to Sam sitting down to lunch. I leaned against the chair, chatting with her about the previous evenings events. She had a freshly made bagel sandwich on her plate. She had just taken a bite out of the sandwich so the plate was […]
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I don’t know if this “Siblings” chapter is my favorite chapter but right now it makes me a little sad. I think the Surprises chapter was the most nostalgic because it was really showing Sam’s softer side and how she felt in certain moments. This chapter I created makes me happy and sad to watch […]
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Sam’s always been a fan of surprises. Her genuine happiness and gratitude for polka dots, exciting trips, soccer games, white boards, and even a new car has always been so enjoyable to see. As she’s gotten older, it’s been harder to surprise her but so rewarding and nostalgic to watch it back on video. Grateful for the memories […]
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It’s October and here is another installment of “OH MY GAWD, SAM IS GRADUATING” and I’m going to be so sad very soon. This video wasn’t as sad as the last one. This one was pretty fun to create. Halloween was/is always a favorite in our house. I love watching how she changes each year. […]
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Sam has the most amazing comedic timing and is such a fantastic actress. Pair that along with her beautiful singing it’s a dream to be able to watch her on stage. This fall they had a performance of Into the Woods. They actually had TWO performances. One where she was a step-sister with a local […]
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I’m on a mission to create a graduation video for Sam. It’s coming up quick (yes, I know it’s “only” October but still…) and then I realized that the video will most likely be about 30 minutes long. With so many friends starting the “Senior Challenge” photo posts on social media, I figured I would […]
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