Yesterday was Crazy

by Kristi on July 31, 2014 · 0 comments


So yesterday, I pretty much freaked out.

I felt like I was hyperventilating. My daughter was gone and possibly feeling bad. She was missing me. She was lonely. I was in a bad way. Completely freaking out. I think I had 4 glasses of wine. I definitely passed out early.

Today I started my period.

I hate hormones. I don’t usually freak out with hormones. I don’t usually cry. It’s been awhile… I probably cry maybe… once every two years. Maybe a little less than that. Sometimes I”ll have a little tear come to my eye. Like in Fault in our Stars. Just a little teary. Nothing full blown.

I’m pretty much a robot. I repress my feelings. I can’t help it.

I guess yesterday was one of those ‘Sky is Falling’ days, as my friend says.

I am still darn excited to see my baby tomorrow. I think I just have more perspective today.

Note to self: Carefully watch the calendar next year when I plan camp….

 

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Sleep Away Camp, Not So Good?

by Kristi on July 30, 2014 · 4 comments


Mommy Alone Time. Who doesn’t love Mommy alone time? Isn’t it the sacred time? The time you never get? The time you would beg, plead, borrow, and steal for?

Well I was wrong. I’m going to say that straight up. I WAS WRONG.

I thought sending my child to sleep away camp would be good for her independence. I thought she would learn from it. That it would be a positive experience that she would remember the rest of her life.

I WAS WRONG.

It’s awful for the Mother. Why didn’t I think that part through? I thought I would be happy she was having fun and learning. Except I’m not. I’m officially freaking out. I want her back. I want her to have all the experiences, learn all the lessons, but do it in one day so that she can be with me.

Going away with Grandparents is completely not the same thing as going away to camp. Just in case you thought differently.

I just got my 8yo back from a 6 day Disney Cruise vacation she took with my Mom and my Sister in Florida. They had a blast. I missed them a bit but it was wonderful having the house to ourselves. We went on a date.. we went out to dinner… we met friends. We got pictures of the kids with the family, having a great time. I trust my own Mama. She knows how to cater to my kid.

Sam Ready for Camp

She is at Girl Scout camp this week… Five whole days. While she was excited, she started crying when we got to the bus. “I don’t want to get on the bus, Mama!” She cried. I shoved her on anyway. “You’ll have fun!” I said. “Mrs Parent Volunteer is on the bus with you, it will be great!” I said.

At the Bus

I got pictures of her getting off the bus (because of said Parent Volunteer).

Stalking Photos

Then I got an email on Tuesday that they were having a great time, and horse back riding twice already from a different Parent Counselor who was staying the whole week.

Waving from the Bus

Hearing that she was having fun… getting updates was actually worse. I don’t think I want to know. I want to imagine that she’s having fun.

So today, the Parent Counselor emailed that she had an ‘I Miss Mommy’ moment. She had to take her aside  and cuddle her. Give her a big hug that she said was from Mommy. I guess she was in a bunk with no friends (or probably not the friend she wanted) so she requested a change today and got it and was happy.

I… I can’t. I can’t EVEN. HELP! Mah Baby! Just give her back to me!

Sam Mama's - Don't Let Your Girls Go To Camp

Why did no one tell me I would feel this way? Or if they did, why didn’t I believe them?

Independence, be dammed. I’ll keep her until she’s 33.

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Saturday: Sweet and Suck

July 19, 2014

    From one of my favorite books, I thought I would do my Sweet and Suck of the day as I was taking a good half hour to cook my bacon, get all the ingredients for an omelette together and mosey around the kitchen. At the same time, my daughter was texting me from […]

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Our RV Trip Through Jackson Hole

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Day Three – How I’m Feeling From My Stem Cell Procedure

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Getting a stem cell procedure is so new and exciting that everyone wants to know how I’m feeling! Well, a few exciting things have happened… – I’m gaining the ability to read minds – My invisibility skills are improving – I’m working on my flying ability but I think I might need a broom… Ha […]

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My Stem Cell Treatment Update – First Day

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I’m Getting Stem Cell Treatment Tomorrow

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Guys, I’m a little nervous! I’m getting a stem cell treatment tomorrow. It’s the new family business so I’m taking advantage of the family discount and going for it. It’s been known to help auto-immune disease like the ones I have. While I don’t have horrible awful symptoms, they are still there and if anything […]

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A Coyote & a Hawk Walk Into a Backyard

July 11, 2014

The last week I have been woken up at the crack of dawn from what I thought was a crow sitting outside my window. It would slowly pull me out of sleep until I couldn’t get back and made me grumpy. This morning, the same noise woke me up and I was still so tired […]

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Travel Day through Utah & Idaho

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I’m trying to spread out my travelblog as much as I can because we took so many pictures! However, here are the last three posts – Grand Canyon trip – Rafting in Page, AZ – Zion National Park visit It took a solid two days of driving to reach Yellowstone so for the first day […]

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Our Zion National Park Adventure in June 2014

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It took us a little over two hours to reach Ponderosa Ranch near Zion National Park. It was a beautiful drive and Sharon sat up with Justin while they examined all the beautiful canyons and quaint towns.  The towns were really adorable! Truck and I read books. GG played on his iPad and Sam just […]

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Rafting the River in Page, AZ

July 6, 2014

After we finished touring the Grand Canyon (if you missed it, that post is here) we woke up, packed up, and headed out towards Page, Arizona for our rafting trip at 1PM. The road followed the end (beginning??) of the Grand Canyon and we came up to the Watchtower so of course, we had to […]

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Summer of Fun (So Far)

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I just looked at the calendar and besides noting the obvious, that it was July 5th, I realized we had been ‘in summer’ for four weeks. A few months ago I lobbied the husband hard to not do Summer School for the kids. It’s a great program, they have a fun of fun, and it’s […]

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I Loved ‘The Red Bikini’ by Lauren Christopher

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** Buy The Red Bikini today! Amazon * B&N * GoodReads ** I was blown away by Ms. Christopher’s debut novel, The Red Bikini. A woman who was suddenly divorced her husband, was taking a break in beautiful “Sandy Cove” (Southern Californian’s will recognize this town!) at her sister’s place, and while she is taking some time […]

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Our Family Trip to the Grand Canyon – 2014

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What an amazing start to our road trip! We packed up the RV and headed out. The RV is really nice. There are some hiccups, as there usually are, but it’s a really nice vehicle compared to the last one we rented. In great condition, it doesn’t redline when we go up the hills, and […]

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Road Tripping 2014

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We are ready to embark on our 2014 Road Trip Extravaganza! We rented an RV and will be off to the Grand Canyon, Zion National Park, and Yellowstone. We are heading out with the kids and the in-laws and I have my freezer full of meals – however the fridge doesn’t seem to be working… […]

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