Ramblings

Having children is like having your heart outside your body – is a quote that pops to mind as I keep obsessing over my oldest. Watching and waiting to find out if Sam has to have surgery is hard. Watching her walk around wearing her emotions on her sleeve is even more painful. It’s a […]

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Death is interesting. It’s sad. It’s powerful. It’s tender. It’s uncomfortable. There is connection there. Somewhere. The few times I’ve been confronted with death, I’ve tried to stay away. Or at least at arms length. Danny. My Grammy. Juanita. Teddy. Grandpa Gene. The classmate from 8th grade on our Washington DC trip. Man, that was […]

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I’m going to do another post – maybe – about the last few weeks. But once I realized John was declining, I started finding all my photos of him and writing down a few things that I wanted to remember. I wasn’t sure if was for a speech during a funeral or just a memory […]

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I wanted a birthday party. Full stop. I’m honestly not sure what to write after that. I wanted to be surrounded by people I love and who I know love me? I wanted to celebrate life. I wanted to be fancy and fun and have some joy? And not do dishes. I think I would […]

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I took these snapshots last month at the end of Q1 (yes, I am laughing at myself for saying that) but I wanted to keep it as a reflection of how I am doing. I want to be proud of myself in terms of my discipline. While I don’t have to do some of these […]

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There are some moments in life where I float above myself and look down and think, what is happening? Is this a real moment?  Then, it can feel like a slap in the face. Some slaps are ones I welcome. I want to feel the pain and the jolt back to reality. I shouldn’t be […]

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My competitive nature wins again! She cracks me up. So… I have to write it all out so I can laugh about it in 5 years. Or next week. Whatever. In March, during my P4G (Performance for Growth) conversation with my direct manager, he started pushing me, asking what I wanted to do in 5 […]

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I was proud of myself for not bringing my computer with me on my last vacation. In France, I think I maybe pulled it out once and usually just skimmed my work emails on my phone.  I know, I’m thinking to myself that I should not even look at work emails anyway, but this was […]

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Planning for the UK trip was sort of a blur. I was waiting for my work trip to materialize. It kept dragging on. Maybe it was happening, maybe it wasn’t. I kept feeling stubborn about it, where I really just wanted to know if I was going because it would have saved me $2300 on […]

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I visited with my Dad over the weekend for his 70th birthday. It was a really lovely and relaxed time. It’s always funny waiting at the airport for him. I start wondering what car he’s driving. He reminds me but I still have to wonder if I’ll recognize it when I see it pulling around […]

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The first day of February started off my month in such a peaceful and joyful way. It was funny how it came along but however it did, it was lovely. The premise was that Ang had loose plans to hang out with Natalie but no actual determination of where to go. We were at dinner […]

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If only I ALWAYS had this perfect of a banana train waiting for me on my kitchen counter. #notsowordlesswednesday

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It’s been a month of moments. I talked about writing more… so here is a weekly journey through January moments – some not so memorable but at least I entertained myself! The first five days of the year were very introspective, quiet, lovely, and a few hard/rewarding parts mixed in. The entire week was a […]

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