This week was hard. Not gonna lie.
I’m moving through it.
Sam and I were in the car on the way to her doctor’s appointment on Thursday and she mentioned how one of her friends was selling Gracie Abram’s tickets that night. I had seen two of my friends at her concert the night before and briefly had a FOMO moment.
Now I don’t know all of Gracie’s songs but I know a GOOD deal. And obviously her opening for Taylor Swift at the Era’s Tour and their collab song, which I love.
And I said, “Ooooh, that would be SO FUN to go to see Gracie tonight!”
We went back and forth. How much were tickets? Where was it at? We had promised to go out to a family dinner tonight and had reservations and would feel a little bad if we bailed.
As we were at the appointment we were checking Ticketmaster and StubHub.
Anyway. I said, dammit, you are leaving in a week. We are doing this.
Also, I don’t buy tickets in the rafters. haha
We went for a little elevated and snagged row 2. Probably more than I should spend but honestly, I don’t care at the moment! I know about restructuring and it’s not me so I’m good for another year – at least. (Knocks on wood!) Maybe. Hopefully.
It actually worked out because we moved our reservation to 5pm, had the family dinner with the 4 of us, and then G got to go see Spring Awakening at the Chance Theater with his friends and Sam and I cut out at 6:15.
It was lovely to hang out with my #1.
What I really loved is that she had a little freakout and felt bad that some of her friends were jealous. She was starting to think, should she go with them? But she said, I really want to go with YOU.
Aww, my heart melted.
She had the setlist playing in the car. We agreed, usually we don’t listen to the set list before the concert but because this was last minute -and I didn’t know all her songs! – this was an exception. Sam was commenting that it was sort of difficult, Gracie is a breakup song girl and Sam did NOT want to think about her last situationship. So she started scrolling through her Hinge conversations.
Sigh.
Oh well. Also, oops for me, did I want to listen to a bunch of breakup songs? Too late now!
We did run into two of her friends, a year younger than her, and I wondered if she felt weird that she was at the concert with her Mama but I don’t think she did. Also, she didn’t really love those friends that much. Ha.
Griff was playing first, and we were walking in as she started so we went down to our seats.
I love Griff! She’s adorable and what a voice.
Such great songs.
Anything – Now I’m singing, “I would have done anything you wanted” in my head
Just to know I was yours, at least for another night
Maybe I craved you so much
‘Cause I knew you were never mine
Oh, maybe it’s ’cause I was young and you were the first to find
You built me up
Just to set me alight
Last Night’s Mascara was one of the first songs I had ever listened to from her and it was amazing to hear live.
She sang a few songs that I had not heard before, which duh. But I heard this one and I thought she was doing a cover song but it was hers. I immediately fell in love. WHAT a ballad.
It was called Astronaut. Heavenly. Haunting.
Oh, you said that you needed space, go on then, astronaut
And when you come back down to earth, bet I’ll be the one you call
When you realise there’s nothing out there, but matter and emptiness
And you let a good thing go
And Tears for Fun immediately jumped down my throat and it’s been on repeat a few times this morning.
When it kills your heart but you can’t say no
When it burns you red but you won’t let go
The deepest cuts, well, they heal so slow
I hope they do, God, but what if they don’t?
God, I hope they do.
Anyway.
I went to go find the bathroom – HUGE lines. Yikes. I ended up getting a glass of wine to take the edge off. I have not been drinking lately but the anxiety was bad this week and the arena was loud.
These cute girls sitting in front of us had made friendship bracelets and she offered us one. Mine says, “tough love”. I like it. We helped the sweet little 10yos behind us get some too.
Gracie opened up and it was beautiful. So lovely to have the crowd screaming. It’s been a long time since I’ve been to the Forum. She opened with Risk and it’s such a screamer.
God, I’m jumping in the deep end
It’s more fun to swim in
Heard the risk is drownin’, but I’m gonna take itI’m gonna bend ’til I break and
You’ll be my favorite mistake
I wish you could hold me here, shakin’
You’re the risk, I’m gonna take it
Why aren’t you here in my bedroom?
Hopelessly boring without you
Too soon to tell you “I love you”
Another one of her popular songs is I Love You, I’m Sorry which Sam and I had fun screaming.
Oh, it felt good to scream
‘Cause that’s just the way life goes
I push my luck, it shows
Thankful you don’t send someone to kill me
I love you, I’m sorryYou were the best but you were the worst
As sick as it sounds, I loved you first
I was a dick, it is what it is
A habit to kick, the age-old curse
I tend to laugh whenever I’m sad
I stare at the crash, it actually works
Making amends, this shit never ends
I’m wrong again, wrong again
I love you, I’m sorry.
She got into a piano ballad, Death Wish. Sam immediately clasped her hands to heart. It was beautiful. She does really have a lot of breakup songs.
Where Do We Go Now, I was scribbling some words into my notes ap. Le sigh.
Mess It Up, same thing. And the crowd screamed that one. I had to listen to that a few times today.
I took up walking to turn it all off
Doesn’t feel bearable
Guess I thought when I left it would all stop
Hmm, it would all stop
Did I fall out of line when I called you?
When I told you “I’m fine”, you were lied to
Full Machine is another one that I fell in love with. What a good beat. And also the lyrics. Sigh.
I almost lost it
I’ll heal eventually
But faster if you’re next to me, next to me
And you don’t have to mean it
You can lie to me
But if you asked me to run away
I’d go easily
So we had I Love You, I’m Sorry but we also have I Miss You, I’m Sorry.
Nothin’ happened in the way I wanted
Every corner of this house is haunted
And I know you said that we’re not talkin’
But I miss you, I’m sorry
I don’t want to go, I think I’ll make it worse
But everything I know brings me back to us
But… BUT
What made this so fucking worth it… was she sang All Too Well, the 10 minute version.
Screaming this song with 15,000 people was so healing.
And I know it’s long gone and that magic’s not here no more
And I might be okay but I’m not fine at allAnd did the twin flame bruise paint you blue?
Just between us, did the love affair maim you, too?
‘Cause in this city’s barren cold
I still remember the first fall of snow
And how it glistened as it fell
I remember it all too well
She mentioned it was 2 years to the day that we had seen Taylor here in LA. I had to do a double take. I can’t believe it’s been two years since that day.
Le sigh.
Then she sang Us, which was her collab with Taylor Swift.
SUCH a great song. The whole crowd screamed along.
I love feeling the music in my bones.
And if history’s clear, the flames always end up in ashes
And what seemed like fate
Give it ten months and you’ll be past it
Babylon lovers hangin’ missed calls on the line
I gave you mineDo you miss us?
I felt it, you held it
Do you miss us?
Wonder if you regret the secret
Of us
Mistaken for strangers, the way it
Was, was
The pain of, the reign of, the flame of
Us, us
She ended with That’s So True
I could go and read your mind
Think about your dumb face all the time
And of course, she came out and did an encore of Close To You which we all jumped up and down, over and over, waving our hands and our phones.
And I burn for you
And you don’t even know my name
If you asked me to
I’d give you everythingTo be close to you
It was a good night. I’m so glad we got tickets and jumped in the car.
The early morning wakeup for 630am meetings was a little rough but it was fiiiiiine.
I’m throwing my 20+ minute montage for when I come revisit this adventure in a few years. š
Actually first, here is a 5 minute montage of all the parts Sam and I sang together. For her wedding, naturally.
Now here is all the videos:
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